I have recently come to see a very exposed side to the social media community that has changed my way of thinking on even things in my every day life.
Let me start from the beginning...
I am a stay at home mother who, as of almost two years ago, started a beauty channel on YouTube. I started it for my own sanity. I was an avid beauty/makeup lover who was a lone wolf, so to speak, in my personal life. I had no one around me who enjoyed discussing makeup or the formulas on products for hours like I did. There was no one who was happy to discuss hair products or skin care for hours. No one. They all looked at me like I was a vain, conceited person who needed a reality check. Well, one day, I was on YouTube and found what is known as the "Beauty Community". I was in awe at these women who had channels where they did NOTHING but talk about makeup and beauty items. They had friends and followers who followed them and joined in on this without judgement and with the same excitement that I had. Being a stay at home mother who was misunderstood to just about everyone around me, I craved so badly to be in a world where I felt more understood and welcomed. So, I started my channel.
It started off perfect and I started making friends left and right which, was exactly what I was hoping for. Other hopefuls like myself welcomed me and helped me out. I truly believed I had found an amazing place to feel safe and make friends and discuss something I was truly passionate about. I believed that everyone was kind there and cared only about makeup and beauty Etc. It is still that way to this day...to a degree....
It is no secret I have my ups and downs in the beauty community on YouTube. It is not an easy place to be these days. It is not as easy to make friends as one would think. My vision of what it was at the start is not the world I see today. Which, brings me to my Dear Diaries here on my blog. For my own sanity, I have decided to have a blog page solely dedicated to my inner thoughts on my world that is social media. A place where we can all come and unwind and unload the stresses of the day because lets face it, the beauty community and social media is like warfare these days. If your still here at the end of the day... I commend you!
So, I will be writing a blog post, every night on the happenings of my social media world. The good, the bad, and most definitely the ugly. I would love for any of you to take this journey with me. We can laugh, cry, or even rant together and maybe, just maybe, find our sanity again.
I am a 31 year old, stay at home mother with a Beauty Channel on YouTube. I will never be "proper" or professional on Youtube so sometimes, I need to vent!